Friday, December 11, 2009

Senioritis

Even though I love my writing class, it seems unable to escape in inescapable senioritis which has increased to 11 in the last month. I have no drive to write. To do homework, to even try anything. I am tired all the time and keeping it real, I could probably sleep for a few days. I still have applications to do and that tiny little piece of glass at the back of my throat that wonders if I will get in to my dream school. And threatens to cut me to pieces if I don't.

I have been thinking about the future instead of the now. My long term boyfriend and I know we probably can't do this whole long distance thing. And since he is staying in Kentucky and I plan to move across the country to Washington, shit is going to hit the fan emotionally. And it sucks to think about that. So I try not to.

On the not so brighter side which is actually not so heavy, I have a 10 page paper due on Monday. As this is Friday, I have this weekend to start and finish researching and writing those 10 pages. Which would suck a massive one if I didn't have a topic or a passion for TS Eliot. But I still lack the motivation. So I will rant a tiny bit more. Right here, instead of putting any effort into my paper.

This weekend is going to be fun.